“There is a criterion by which you can judge whether the thoughts you are thinking and the things you are doing are right for you. The criterion is: Have they brought you inner peace?” – Peace Pilgrim
It is the fourth day into my retreat. Silence grows increasingly comfortable, and is now even preferred over soft music. I napped today, cuddled in the warm sun streaming through the window, tucked in the fetal position under a warm throw. Only for a moment did my internal voice say “you must go … be active … you are here and must make full use and engage” But then I let go realizing that I can answer such internal thoughts without filtering through obligations. So I napped and enjoyed it ever so much.
I awoke, dressed, and wondered out along the nearby cliffs overlooking Goat Rock, Arch Rock, and the crashing surf below. It all unfolded slowly … meaningfully … spiritually. I took a moment offering to photograph three women who were visiting, allowing them all to be in the same picture. It too was slow, meaningful, and touched with kindness. It felt good as did sitting there on the bluff facing the setting sun.
Now I sit on the deck, looking out across the river as it spills into the ocean, listening to the silence, typing and looking out at the increasing shadows of the setting sun. Two Canadian Geese flying up the river and toward the ocean have just passed, filling my heart with joy since they are my power animal and always stir emotion within me. It is a sign that I am in the right place at the right moment.
My inner voice is quiet. My heart feels at peace. My soul is being fed by my communing with nature in silence. I am in a place where I feel sweet … feel totally “me” … feel peacefully drifting though this hectic yet earthly world. There is much being told me in the moment. Many messages. Many truths. And because of the quieting of my mind and spirit I am able to listen and hear. It is wonderful …