“The most glorious moments in your life are not the so-called days of success, but rather those days when out of dejection and despair you feel rise in you a challenge to life, and the promise of future accomplishments.” – Gustave Flaubert
I stand in a haze … at times feeling like it might be lifting … at times feeling like it is becoming more opaque. I continue to try to understand but I must admit that I move in the confusion of what I “feel” and how life’s circumstances seem to challenge the very conditions that bring me a richer life. Yes … what is, is … but I still wish to know so that I can at least come to peace with how life seems to be a series of contradictions and contrasts.
Each day I read a blog called The Daily Love (http://thedailylove.com/?inf_contact_key=8f001c8202f370de5dcacfe3713822cb09b060a2a80040216dff9a22d84501e2). Today Mastin, the blogger, wrote …
“EVERYTHING your heart truly desires, yes EVERYTHING that is meant to be yours will come when you are finally willing to become the person it takes to manifest it.”
If true, then I must be moving towards an unknown and poorly understood definition of me, the person. Is it that what my heart’s desire is not meant to be mine? Is it that what I feel deep within my heart is not meant to be desired? Is it that I have not yet become the person worthy of the desires I feel? Is it that the truth of the universe is totally different than what Mastin and others think it is, and that the truth has yet to be discover by me or others? Or is it all something else? I do not know … nor will I likely ever know … and maybe that is the real truth … that I am on this journey filled with random possibilities which may or may not intersect with my life. And if this is the truth, then seeking understanding of any kind will simply create tension and discomfort. An interesting question … and interesting complexity.